Are We Having Fun Yet?

Actually NO!  I can't wait until Friday!  I am not having fun waiting for the Neurostimulator to be activated.  I am not having fun not being able to shower (TMI)!  I am not having fun with the glue/stitches/staples in my lower back and left hip.  But mostly, I am not having fun worrying about whether this process will work, and waiting to find out. 

I like resting as much as the next person, but on the 6th day enough is enough.  My body is not requiring as much rest, so now it is annoying.  I am bored.  I began quilting a blanket that has been waiting for over 2 years.  Which raises the question - am I suddenly motivated or actually that bored.  I fear the later!  I am not having fun! 

What would I consider fun at this point?  Grocery shopping would be better than waiting around for Friday.  Hurting less would be fun, even a little less.  I am unable to find a comfortable position and getting up and down is even more uncomfortable than lying still.  Which, by the way, I am not able to do.  I am having a problem with twitching.  This problem has existed, on and off, for several years, and I am not talking about little twitches.  I am talking about lift my body off the bed kind of twitches, and they occur in succession.  This evening my husband told me he was watching me twitch while I was sleeping this morning.  If and when I can find a comfortable position, one in which my right leg is not getting numb, this twitching distracts me significantly.  It might be more accurate to call the feeling a jolt rather than a twitch.  I have noticed that I occasionally feel these while sitting, which is new.  Just what I need, progressive discomfort!   

It is my most sincere hope that when the Neurostimulator is turned on and performs miraculously, relieving all of my pain, making me 4 inches taller and 100 pounds lighter, I will no longer feel tingling, numbness and/or jolt like twitching.  The temperature outside will be tolerable, my van will smell like new leather not old dirty feet.  My debit card will have an endless supply of money, and I will own every Whipper Snapper and Hero Arts rubber stamp ever made, AND every color Copic marker plus refills.  Then I will be having fun!    Will I have to drastically alter my thinking on how the Neurostimulator will work, and what will constitute fun?  Sure.  I am, after all, willing to compromise. 

Are we having fun yet?  No, not yet.  But, I am willing to consider less pain and a lower dose of pain killers fun.  I am also willing to be thrilled at taking a shower!   These are my revised standards of fun.