Feeling better, and having freedom over pain is a day to day challenge. Some days I am simply not up to the challenge. The weather appears to be a big factor in arthritis and Fibromyalgia pain, and the Neurostimulator just doesn't help those aches and pains. The last 5 days I have gone about my plans, regardless of these or any other pains. Yesterday I gave in to the exhaustion and rested. Before resting, I went to Barnes & Noble to get several items. This was very enjoyable, and energized my soul. I bought the 25th anniversary edition of "The Polar Express" for a grandchild my husband and I plan on seeing when he reaches his "majority"! This allows my soul to be at peace. I write to him in a journal, make cards on holidays and include cash, and I have a box of things that he can have when he is older. We count him as a grandchild, because he is. A child should never be held responsible for a parent's stupidity! I am doing "The Elf on the Shelf" at grandma & grandpa's. This got me excited, and it will give me something to look forward to every day for a month, while I take pictures of the elves doing naughty things at grandma & grandpa's. The elves will be part of the items he will get when we meet him - that and a lot of money!
I enjoyed my trip to Barnes & Noble, I felt normal. I walked around without a cart or walker, and although I started hurting, it was quite manageable. By the time I got home I was ready to give in to the pain, it had gotten the better of me. I read in bed for part of the day. My mind remained active, although my body said --nope! The interesting thing I find about being so physically exhausted, is my inability to sleep. Today, may be another rest day, after the exterminator leaves.
On my last visit to Dr. Carlson, my pain specialist, I asked for a lower dose of pain medication. Oops! The lower dose doesn't take away all of the different pains I have. So I am still in pain when I am ready for another dose. After a few days of this, I found myself getting very irritable, because I just never felt all the way better. Pain is relative, you either feel it or you don't. I may have requested a lower dose to early. I have felt so much less pain since having the Neurostimulator, that I foolishly forgot about "other" pain.
Living pain free is my goal! I guess I may have to lose weight also ---- but that is for next time!
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