Any Morning Without Pain - - -

I can't really consider this a morning without pain, because I woke up at 2:00 AM in an a lot of pain, and took a pain pill, half of a muscle relaxer, and Benadryl (pediatric!).  So waking up without pain is most likely brought on by my nocturnal activities.  I try very hard, and I am very careful about taking medication during the night.  I do not feel that I am awake enough to make and remember decisions.  Otter pops and cookies are excluded!

I know that stress and sadness affect my pain, just as happiness and joy do.  My stress level is affected by several things:  my husband being priority challenged sometimes, and having to conduct a head removal (I will let you guess from where!)  Worrying about my grandchildren - as I worried about my children; and also worrying about pain.  My sadness was very specific yesterday.  My happiness more broad.  I was driving and listening to a Zac Brown cd, to a song titled, "Let it Go."  My favorite lines, "Save your strength for things that you can change, forgive the things you can't, You've got to let it go."   Working on it!  Because I know that my pain is directly linked to my stress which is directly linked to my acceptance of 2 concepts:  First, that you have to let stupid people be, and they will be; and second, that I raised two very honorable men, that my oldest chose to not remain that way, is neither of my doing nor fault. 

I also believe meditation would help if I could do it.  It is impossible for me with my insides buzzing, and my involuntary twitches!  Not to mention being more ADHD with each day older I become!

Well, it is 10:40 AM, I have returned from getting my glasses straightened out.  I even drove through McDonalds.  Kind of regretting that now, not the driving - the eating.  But, I ate at the table!  Yahoo?  I usually grab a cookie and lay down to read by now.  The cookie is only so I can take pain meds if I need them!  Sure!

I have not yet turned on the Neurostimulator, which I am going to do.  Then I am going to try to de-compress and get in a minute of meditation - my longest time yet!

It is almost 8:00 pm and I realize I should not have gone so long without pain pills today, that my surgical incisions still hurt, and that I really really am tired of pain!  I have to find a new game for my body to play!